I've been missing in action from my blog for a couple weeks! I feel like I've been antisocial - no blogging, no facebooking, no phone calls! It's just we had so many visitors the first week, and when we didn't have visitors, I was trying to nap whenever possible.
I've been enjoying my new little one and getting used to motherhood. I'm going on my third week being a mommy and it's been quite an adjustment.
First of all - breastfeeding is not as easy as it looks! I had some crazy preconceived notion that all babies just latch right on and all is good! Yeah right! I've been exclusively breastfeeding Jenna since birth. At first, I was seriously worried and thought about giving up. While we were in the hospital she did not want to latch. When she would latch, she'd fall asleep right away or get all fussy and try and eat her hands! Finally on Sunday night (the day we came home), I got her naked, me topless, and did the skin-on-skin thing. I also tried breast compressions to keep her latched and it worked!
Ever since then, she has gotten much better at breastfeeding. She's gaining weight and going through lots of diapers, so I think that's a good sign. What I love about breastfeeding is the bonding that I get to do with Jenna. It's nice knowing she needs me and depends on me. What is stressful about breastfeeding is feeling like I can't do anything or go anywhere without her.
For example, my husband's uncle passed away last week and we went to the rosary. The whole time Jenna wanted to nurse in church! Talk about inconvenient. I had a hooter hider on, but the guy behind me praying his rosary could totally see down my shirt. I fed her before church, but the minute we sat down and the service started, she wanted to nurse (I think partly because she wanted to be soothed). I'm hoping my pump will help with this issue.
I'm pumping once a day to stock up on milk and Jeremy gave Jenna her first bottle a couple of days ago while I was taking an online exam for my class. Jenna didn't particularly like it, and fought a little, but she did eventually drink it, so I'm happy. Hopefully now that she's had a bottle, I will feel better about taking some "mommy time" and not worrying about her being fed!
Lack of sleep is another adjustment. I'm the kind of person who needs LOTS of sleep, so it's been hard for me to get used to being woken up. Since Jenna's breastfed, she gets up every 2-4 hours to eat (usually at 12:30, 2:30, and 5).
Not only does she get up every few hours, (which is normal) Jenna has a growing hatred for her bassinet. She seems to sleep in it less and less every night. I really don't like co-sleeping because I'm afraid of all of the risks, but lately, Jenna seems to only be content sleeping next to me, on my chest, or in my arms. NOT GOOD!
It almost seems like she doesn't like being flat on her back or something. Jeremy even set up this co-sleeper next to the bed last night to see if she liked it better. Yeah right! She lasted about 1 minute in that thing before starting her grunting and crying. If anyone has suggestions for getting a little one to like their bassinet, let me know! She seems to like sleeping propped up in the boppy, but everything I've read says not to do that because it increases the risk of SIDS.
I asked an experienced mom the other day - "At what age do you get to sleep again?" She laughed and said, "When they move out." Nice.
Despite the lack of sleep, I love my baby girl, and I'm loving being a mom.