After a wonderful 8 weeks home with my baby girl, I was scheduled to go back to work next week. I just couldn't bring myself to do it. Jeremy and I came to a decision this week - I am going to stay home with Jenna.
I have to confess that the moment I returned home from the hospital after Jenna was born I wanted to quit my job! I kept telling myself, just wait because you’ll feel differently after a few weeks. Now my leave is over, and I still feel like being at home is what’s best for me and my family at this time.
I am sure all moms struggle with this decision. I consider myself a career-driven woman and I never thought it would be so hard to leave my baby, but it is. After all, I am one class away from having a Master's degree and I've managed to land some awesome jobs in the past few years. But when I compare all of that to doing the most important job in the world - raising my daughter - none of it matters.
So after careful consideration and much thought, I've decided to quit my job. I’ve come to the conclusion that if I stay home with Jenna for a year and decide I want to go back to work, there will always be jobs. Of course not the exact job I have now, but there will be jobs. However, if I decide to work instead of stay home and regret it later, I will never be able to get this time with her again.
I love cuddling with her in the mornings. I love breastfeeding. I love seeing her smile. I love singing to her and playing with her. And as odd as this sounds, I love comforting and soothing her when she's upset. I know that if I was working I would come home tired, trying to cook, clean, take care of the hubby, do my homework for my class, and tend to the baby. Plenty of women do this everyday and do it well. But I knew that was not a life I wanted to live.
So I am totally excited and nervous about beginning my journey as a Stay At Home Mom! I know it will be challenging and exhausting, but the most rewarding thing I will ever do.