Christmas at the Cabin
I have a lot to get done today, but I couldn’t help opening up my laptop to add a Christmas post. Here I am, sitting in front of the fire, Glady to my right, Rico to my left. The snow is falling in waves outside, and Chris just put a Classic Christmas playlist on Spotify. It’s 10 am and after sleeping in a little, letting the dogs out, and planning our weekend out over coffee and cookies, I have to stop and really take it all in.
Last year we spent the Holidays in Mexico, so it’s safe to say we didn’t quite get the full experience. I was actually just getting over a really bad stomach bug, and things were still really transitional - even for us ;) The Christmas before that, we had just met, and while we were spending almost every day together, our Christmas traditions were still very separate. So the fact that we have our own little home, with our two dogs, and a Christmas tree we put up together … it just means a lot to me.
Just a year ago, I didn’t know what I wanted to do. My big plans had failed, and I wasn’t sure which direction to head. Yes, we were beaching it every day, spear fishing, and snorkeling … but mentally it was very uncomfortable. This year we both have careers that allow us to travel (finally) and plans to really set down some roots in a state that we both want to stay in forever. As we look over the horizon of the next year, there is stability and freedom … a duo that we have painstakingly tried to nail down, and is finally becoming a reality.
But the great thing is, I don’t really spend too much time looking out into the future horizon too much lately. Most days (please note: *most) I am completely content with exactly where we are at. We have everything we need. I literally could not ask for anything else right now. I have everything I could ask for already. So if it takes a while to purchase our own first home, or have children (I keep going back and forth on this one), or get the cabin just the way we want it … that’s okay! We have everything we could ask for in the meantime … the rest is just icing on the cake.
I think that ought to do it for now. Hopefully the next time I am having issues with my perspective, I can come back to this post and remember what it feels like to just be content as I am. For now, I have a lot to do! Dog treats to bake, presents to wrap, crates to drop off, last minute gifts to purchase (sorry, I am one of those!) and family to visit, It’s the most Christmas-ey Christmas I have had in a long time, and I intend to take in every little second of it.
Merry Christmas to you and yours!
*note: a day after this I also had a major breakdown, as it is the first Christmas I have spent without my dad just a phone call away. It hit me out of nowhere like a ton of bricks. I don’t take any of the above feelings back, but I do think it’s important to note the good and the hard in the holidays. Love you dad :)